Beautiful Pleasure

Once there was a much loved Mother that gave birth to a son.

He was beautiful and round and brown and soft and she loved him so.
He cried and he suckled and he smiled and he suckled some more.
As he suckled she thought to herself “I shall call him Beautiful Pleasure, because he brings me pleasure and he is beautiful.”

The son grew, happy in the shadow of his mother, constantly aware of his surroundings and gentle in his heart.
His life was like a train ride with some track smooth, some bumpy and some so rough that the cars seemed as they would be bounced apart.

As happens sometimes in life, the rough parts overtook the smooth and the gentle soul was snatched out of the son’s body, leaving only a husk, with no promises of return.
The husk was not allowed to die, nor was it allowed to live…exactly.

Through it all, the much loved Mother never quit her Beautiful Pleasure and the husk never lost all the oils that had once made it smooth and soft.

When the land helped smooth the rails again, as nature has a habit of doing, the gentle soul slowly resurfaced.
Renewed, and still gentle, but with a stronger covering, the boy sprouted and grew and survived and overcame and succeeded.
Now he was again beautiful and round and brown and soft.

But now he also had a fire light shining within him.
Sometimes it burned blue and soft, while other times it burned red and hot.
It wasn’t always controllable, but it was always true.

The much loved Mother, who thought of her Beautiful Pleasure often, but saw him not, was able to feel the fire light.
Most often it warmed her, but indeed, even she was scorched at times.

When she felt the scorch, she said, “My beautiful, round, brown and soft acquired a rocket that will not be tied down.”

And together they smiled, in their hearts, knowing and loving each other well.

Copyright 2012

Guest post by Edward Jakab

I asked Edward Jakab, author of “Fearless”, to participate in the “next big thing” self-interview. Here are his answers.

1) What is the working title of your current/next book?

Well, it depends on which book you’re asking about. I am currently working on two items simultaneously. “Mine” will be the sequel to “Fearless.” And “Chosen” is an entirely different project. So I don’t confuse you, I’ll talk about “Mine.”

2) Where did you get the idea for that book?

Fearless ended in such a way that it just called for a sequel. I’ll admit, I did that on purpose. Starting college and living on my own for the first time in my life has given me many stories to write about.

3) What’s the genre of the book?

Gay young adult.

4) If you could pick actors to play the lead characters in your story, who would you pick?

The actors I can see playing my characters in “Mine” on the big screen would be:

Jacob = Logan Lerman

Drew = Ezra Miller

Nicole = Dana Davis

Austin = Spencer Boldman

Superman = Taylor Lautner

5) How would you describe your book in one sentence (10 words or less)?

Life gets in the way.

6) (a) How will your book be published, submitted through the traditional route to a traditional publisher or will you be handling it yourself through Indie Publishing methods? (b) If you’re an Indie Author, will you be publishing through your own Indie Publishing company or in a collective with other Indie Authors?

I’ll be self-publishing through Amazon.

7) How long did it take you to write the first draft of this book?

I haven’t entirely finished it yet, to be honest with you.

8) What other books within your genre are similar to yours?

There aren’t any like mine. (See what I did there? Pun.)

9) Who or what inspired you to write this book?

A few boys…

10) What about your book will pique the reader’s interest?

The hidden code, finding out who this book is inspired by or written for…

Edward Jacob’s book can be found at à http://www.amazon.com/dp/B0096CQ2SW

Edward himself can be found on twitter at https://twitter.com/EddieBtVS

 

The next big thing, self interview blog…

Sarah R. Yoffa invited me to participate in a blog series she is doing called “The Next Big Thing”. Since the next big thing, in my case, is pretty close to the first big thing and could use all the press it can get, I readily agreed.

A self interview is quite a bit like an informal chat with friends, except by yourself. I like informal chats and I find that I talk to myself a lot as well. Sara gave me the following list of interview questions and I took my best shot at the answers:

1) What is the working title of your current/next book?

Alexander’s Tail. I have to admit that I am loving the story and the characters, but not the title so much right now. I also haven’t done much tweaking of the title at this point.

2) Where did you get the idea for that book?

Unlike some of my story ideas, that have literally come to me in dreams, this one came through channels solidly tethered to earth. The three main characters began as real people and quickly morphed. Even more so, the situations are ones that hovered around the edges of real interactions. The inspiration was bringing the story and the characters together to play, I guess. That said, I must state that the situation(s) in the book have not been experienced by me, or anyone that I know, and none of the characters portrayed are remotely real. They are both composite figments of my (often provocative, sometimes ill) imagination.

3) What’s the genre of the book?

Ugh, I knew this question was in here and I’ve thought about it dozens of times. I don’t like the question simply because, as a writer whose characters are often gay, I feel like my stories will get pigeon-holed into the “Male – Male Romance” genre. At the point I am at in my published writing career, the very cusp of it, if you will, I guess it is what it is. However, I have other themes and stories started and hope that I can break out of this label sometime. Time and the quality of my writing will tell, I guess.

4) If you could pick actors to play the lead characters in your story, who would you pick?

If I can freely use hair dye…maybe lifts…and a time machine…I would choose Orlando Bloom to play Alexander, Cory Monteith to play Brice, and Taylor Lautner to play Nico.

I’ll never get over Orlando as the tall, slender elf. That physical presence is what I am imagining for Alexander.

Brice is just as tall, but built heavier and it is his nature and demeanor to be more innocent and open. Cory Monteith fits this bill for me.

Finally, I need someone dark and muscular, serious, older and shorter in this triumvirate. The boys use their height to their advantage, but Nico has power from within and doesn’t need to tower over anyone to dominate. I must admit, who plays Nico was the biggest struggle for me. It’s not a type I’m generally on the lookout for, but I think Taylor Lautner would carry Nico off well.

5) How would you describe your book in one sentence (10 words or less)?

Alexander’s Tail is about love, neglect and broken personality.

6) (a) How will your book be published, submitted through the traditional route to a traditional publisher or will you be handling it yourself through Indie Publishing methods?

Hmm, excellent question. I haven’t thought it through yet, but I’m pretty sure I will not be looking at traditional brick and mortar print publishers.

6) (b) If you’re an Indie Author, will you be publishing through your own Indie Publishing company or in a collective with other Indie Authors?

Again, I must say, I have not yet decided. I’ve been talking to a number of authors who have published using several directions and it surprises me how many options there are to successfully publish a book without every approaching a traditional publishing company. The market for books is so very much larger than it was when I was a child growing up in Baudette, MN. Then, if I couldn’t get the book from the library, which housed mainly traditional titles and authors, or one of the drug stores in town, which was the place to go for paperback best sellers and romance novels, I was out of luck. Today, the options for finding reading material are almost as unlimited as your imagination.

7) How long did it take you to write the first draft of this book?

A little more than a year (I’m hoping, lol). I began in December of 2011 and I am almost done with the first draft. Rewrites and editing are my next big worries at this point.

8) What other books within your genre are similar to yours?

None, mine is totally unique *eye roll*.

9) Who or what inspired you to write this book?

The original inspiration came from within, after a number of life changes. The on-going inspiration came from a group I call my original “have your back” friends. Most of them have read different stages of the draft and given me constructive feedback and fraternal enthusiasm. A couple of them have inspired and helped me every step of the way.

10) What about your book will pique the reader’s interest?

Everything, I hope! But, realistically, the creation of characters that are able to have strong relationships with each other, while being engaging, funny and multidimensional, is what drives and motivates me.

I’m thanking Webbiegrrl Sarah for asking me to do this blog and tagging several of my favorite authors to ask them about their “Next Big Thing”. The tag is a surprise for some and expected by others, so we’ll just see where it goes!

Tag, you guys are it, I hope you want to play! –> Andrew Ashling, James AustenAlex Akira, Edward Jakob and David G. Hallman.

For anyone that feels the need to rummage through this site and look at what I’ve posted about Alexander, Brice, and Nico already, click here.

 

A Review of “Fearless” by Edward Jakab

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FEARLESS
Kindle Edition
Published September 4th 2012 by Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
ASIN
B0096CQ2SW
edition language
English
Sep 17, 2012
rating didn't like it it was ok liked it really liked it (my current rating) it was amazing
bookshelves glbtreadromanceyoung-adult

status Read in September, 2012
format Kindle Edition
review A great read, and first book, by a promising new author!Edward develops his characters well and has a very authentic voice. There are plenty of family dynamics, school relationships and conflict within and between characters to keep the reader interested in this first love / coming of age story.

One of the things I particularly liked was the balance the author used for reactions to a gay character, both in families and in the school. They weren’t all negative and they weren’t all positive. Jake had many friends, from both sexes, that fully supported his boyfriend(s) and him, even to the point of some (OMG) kissing action.

A couple of times I did have to step back and wonder at how seemingly clueless Jake was in the “below the belt” department for an older teen gay boy, but that made for an easy exclusion of those awkward pawing scenes so prevalent in many coming out and male romance stories. The love scenes are tame, but the feelings seem sincere.

Jake’s family dynamics and the inevitable conflict therein are realistically developed without leaning too much on the absent father / over involved mother stereotype either. His younger sister, and confidant in all things “Drewish”, has a very sophisticated philosophy, but sometimes adults simply over-think the obvious.

Go take a look, we’ll be seeing more by Edward Jakab in the future!

Provincetown – Cape Cod, Massachusetts

Provincetown is a wonderful gay meca at the tip of Cape Cod in Massachusetts. When I was coming out, 27+ years ago, I had to make a business trip to Boston in December. I had never been to Boston before so I planned on spending the weekend, and asked around to get some ideas of where to go and what to see.

One of my friends at the time mentioned that all the gays hung out in Provincetown so I would want to steer clear of there… I quickly looked the place up and got on the phone to book a B&B for Friday and Saturday night.

This was not the Provincetown of scantily clad boys and wall to wall dancing every afternoon at the Boatslip. I was going in the middle of December and the weather was picture perfect pre-holiday bliss. The streets were quiet and the temperature was cold enough to keep snow glistening in yards and on rooftops.

I spent that weekend dancing with locals, since they seemed to be the only ones around. I was young and pretty new to the gay scene and I was really only interested in dancing and talking. The locals were, for the most part, friendly and not too pushy. One man I danced with for most of one evening was a waiter at the Red Inn. I gave him a ride home the first night. I turned down his offer to share his bed, but I did go and eat dinner with him (as he was waiting tables the next evening, lol). I ate some of the best seafood I had experienced in my life so far. This was the first time I had eaten simple, fresh lobster, straight from the tank (hopefully from the ocean prior to that??) to the boiling pot, to a plate with a large butter dipping dish in front of me. I gave him a big tip and then, of course, never talked to him again. This was before the days of e-mail, twitter, facebook, four-square, etc.

I still have many pleasant coming out memories of that trip, as well as some really cool hand made Christmas decorations I purchased as mementos.

Since that trip I’ve been back about twelve times and enjoyed each time as much as the first. Even though P-town is small, there is lots to do, plenty of great places to eat (Cafe Heaven and Red Inn being my favorites), artists of every media type, great beaches, parties going on all the time and a plethora of friendly GLBTQ and straight, but not narrow, people. There are also places to stay that would please every need. We have almost always stayed at Land’s End Inn because it is like a giant old English Manor house full of antiques and wondrous vistas and views.

However, if you wanted to stay jammed in with as many young gay guys as you could shake a…fist? at you could try the Boatslip

and there are also “clothing optional” options…which I’ll just let you imagine.

If this makes you want to book your trip to P-town, well, get at it! Check out the Provicetown Tourism Office site and travel gaily along!

A post re-blogged from friend David R. Weiss.

I plucked a blog post from my friend, David Weiss’, site and re-blogged it here because I feel strongly about his writing and his subject. I have sung with his wife for many years and worshiped together with them in spiritual and physical presence.

If you are a supporter of social justice for all, including GLBT who are invisible to most people, even most other GLBT people, the movie David reviews can be both a trial and a testament. “Call Me Kuchu” is the story of a Ugandan queer’s life and death. Check out the rest of his site as well, including his written words.

A review of “Standing On Ceremony – The Gay Marriage Plays” directed by Wendy Knox

I attended a production of “Standing on Ceremony, The Gay Marriage Plays” on Saturday, June 9, 2012 with my partner, Paul, and two good friends of ours, Jim and Diane. The play is a series of eleven one act shorts, by eleven different, talented writers. The set was very simple, but effectively used. Because of the simple set, the play relied heavily on the actor’s ability to create character, emotion, time and place with the written words. All of them did this well, and several did it extremely well. The director, Wendy Knox of Frank Theatre, did a marvelous job with this collection, creating an evening of various forms of discussion between actors, bringing important points around gay marriage arguments home with humor, wit and poignancy.

 There were three male actors and three female actors playing various roles in the eleven scenes. There was only one scene, called “On Facebook” by Doug Wright–he won a Tony for Best Play for his 2004, “I Am My Own Wife”, find the link to my review for this show here–that used all five actors at once. This scene was one of my favorites because I am such a social media addict! Who hasn’t seen that uncomfortable conversation thread that makes you want to jump in and state your hard developed philosophy in short snippets and emoji faces?

“The Marriage is Saved” by Joe Keenan, was another favorite with an especially strong performance by Aimee K. Bryant. “The Gay Agenda” by Paul Rudnick was full of spunk, rhetoric and emotion. “London Mosquitoes” by Moises Kaufman brought tears to the eyes of many, and the final scene, “Pablo & Andrew at the Altar of Words” by Jose Rivera had some of the most beautifully written, vision producing, poetry of love I have heard in quite a while.

If you are a supporter of Gay Marriage, or maybe if you are on the fence and would like a lively evening of fun with thought thrown in, please try to catch one of the final performances of this play on June 14, 15 and 16.

Eulogy for Dad

Clyde L. Tyler b. May 6, 1932 – d. March 25, 2012

I’m Bob Tyler, Clyde and Bert’s middle child and only son.

Dad was a son to two,
He was a brother to four,
A husband to one,
The father of three,
He was grandfather to four,
And he was a friend to many.

Some of the words I use to describe my father include:

Family Oriented. That is, he was always focused on the family. He had laser focus. That focus was all inclusive. No individual or part of an individual family member was excluded.

Available. He was there when needed.

Candid. Don’t ask him if you didn’t want to know.

Stoic. Or quiet if you prefer.

Strong. Like an Ox, both emotionally and physically.

Detail oriented. He told a good story, when he wasn’t being stoic .

Educated. He read anything and everything he could get his hands on. Just a couple of months ago, a while after he had lost the ability to follow a long story and had gone to reading piles of magazines only, I read a book I really liked and was telling him about it. A week or so later, I found a copy of that book at their house. He read it the year it came out.

Competitive. Very competitive. More specifically, he was competitive when playing games. He was not competitive with life, never getting caught up in trying to collect the most, biggest, or newest.

Willing and able. Always willing and always able.

It may sound like I’m trying to make him into a perfect man. He wasn’t perfect and he knew very well that he needed the Grace afforded him by his faith. He told me many times that we were all saved by Grace alone.

I remember many examples that illustrate these traits of Dad’s, but I’ll share one example in particular that is, obviously, special to me.

One Thanksgiving, 27 or 28 years ago, I decided it was time to come out as a gay man to my parents. I had already done this obviously with myself, and also, with my sisters, so I made damn sure that they would be home as well for this little announcement. I sat the whole family down in the living room after dinner and gave them “the talk”. Consider yourself lucky that I’ll spare you the details of this conversation, and, to be honest, I don’t remember Dad saying much during the telling of it anyway.

What I do remember is a conversation he and I had later, in the theoretical safety of the garage, where we could talk about cars or tools or snowmobiles, if needed. He was crying, which was pretty much unheard of, and he told me that the thing he was sad about was that I would have such a difficult life. He knew there were people that would try to make my life something less than the wonderful adventure he thought it should be for all of his children.

To me, that was always an absolutely shining example of Dad’s quiet, but fierce value system. He was an iron-clad supporter of his wife, children, and grandchildren. His focus was on his family…laser focus.

Obviously, I’ll miss Dad, as will the rest of my family. We’ll miss him tremendously at times when we gather as a family for holidays, conversation or simply a meal. I thank God –as well as my parents, my sisters, and each of our spouses—that we all ended up within 35 minutes of each other and have had 15 years or so together, continuing to learn and share with each other.

Now that Dad has done his job, it’s time for us to pass it forward, and continue with our own laser focus.

Thank you.